I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving you. Maybe I can learn to function without you, but I don’t think I can ever forget you. You’re the best thing I’ve ever had and maybe in another life, I’ll get a chance. I wish I learnt all this before I met you, so that our relationship could have lasted.

I was in love with the idea of being in love and I hurt her. I wouldn’t say I didn’t love her at all. I did. In all honesty, I did love her. But, not enough. Not as much as she loves me. I am sorry.

It stung. Knowing that you’re actually willing to give up the jacket just to make things so clear. I don’t even know why things have to be this way. Why. Out of sight, out of mind. But I know that you’ll always be on my mind. Right now, all I wanna do is just smoke my life away, bleed until I feel no more and take all the meds I have to go to sleep. You’ve no idea how much this is killing me.

"When I realised she was the biggest part of my life, the person in the whole world that I trust the most, care for the most, love the most and would do anything just to make sure she was happy I realised that I love her, that I’d never loved another person like I love her and that she’s The One."

Looked through all the tweets, everything we had. I realized that, I was toxic for you. I never appreciated what I had and I kept pushing you away even though you were the only thing going right for me. I was so desperate to push you away so that you didn’t have to put up with my nonsense. And I guess, it’s good that you no longer have to go through all of that again. If I love you, I’ll let you go. If I love you, I’ll never ask you back. If I love you, I’ll wish you well.

It really doesn’t get easy. But I’m glad you got out of it.

Everytime I’m feeling better or I feel like I’m slowly getting used to the fact that the past is never coming back, you decide to do something so fucking drastic that fucks me up ALL OVER AGAIN. yes fine it’s my fault for following you on social media but aren’t you over me already? Why are you still doing all this shit. I don’t get it. How is it that when I think of you, I just get really sad. But all you feel is anger. Why can’t you just look past everything and see how apologetic I am now. Or how I’m trying SO HARD to make things right again. Sometimes I think I’m better off dead. Better off alone. Cos it seems like I’m a menace to the people around me. I don’t know how long before I just break down completely.

HAHAHAHA SERIOUSLY. IS IT I NEVER EXISTED OR WE NEVER EXISTED OR YOU DONT WANT TO SEE ANY PHOTO OF US TGT ANYMORE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA I’m so sick right now and this is just making me feel so much worse HAHAHAHA AND I SOUND SO HAPPY WOW IM OFFICIALLY CRAZY. All I feel is hurt, regret and disappointment and all you feel is hate and anger HAHAHA kill me la please I just OD sua. DIE SUA I can’t do this shit anymore ACCIDENTALLY CRYING HAHAHA I’m just killing myself BRING IT ON OBESITY LUNG CANCER LIVER CANCER YOU NAME IT I GOT IT HAHAHAHA.